Jennette McCurdy

McCurdy detailed the emotional and physical abuse she experienced from her mother, who died from cancer, during an interview on "Red Table Talk."

McCurdy said she's still working to heal from her childhood. She also justified the group showers by saying she had "too much to do," and bathing McCurdy and her brother together would speed things up. Her mother hoarded, forcing McCurdy and her three older brothers to sleep on mats on the floor, she said. Since then, McCurdy said she has gone to therapy to heal from the abusive relationship dynamic. Because of her mother's cancer diagnosis, McCurdy felt like she could never say "no" to her. There, her mother seemed to agree with the doctor's concern over McCurdy's low body weight.

"iCarly" star Jennette McCurdy claimed her late mom would make her and her brother take showers together when she was a tween and he was a teenager.

12 I can tell he does too.” I get really embarrassed when she showers us together.

Jennette McCurdy shared a belittling email from her mother in a recent episode of 'The Red Table Talk,' hosted by Jada Pinkett-Smith, Willow Smith, ...

I am free. She claimed that her sons joined her in disowning McCurdy and signed the letter “Mom (or should I say DEB since I am no longer your mother).” The postscript was especially egregious: “P.S. “I am so disappointed in you,” her mom wrote in the email. SICK.”) and more name-calling (“UGLY MONSTER”). Throughout the talk, McCurdy remained consistent in the description of her mother she gave in her runaway best seller, a portrait of her late mother that includes the abuse and exploitation of the former iCarly star. In the email, her mother went on to call McCurdy a “LIAR, CONNIVING, EVIL,” and shamed her daughter for looking “pudgier” because she was “EATING” her guilt.

On “Red Table Talk” Wednesday, McCurdy got candid about the last conversation she had with her mother before she died of breast cancer in 2013.

I have two nieces that I adore and a third on the way. "I believe that she cared more about my body and my weight than she did about anything else that could possibly be uttered by my brothers’ mouths.” Part of it was an effort by McCurdy to maintain her already-petite stature. For 24/7 crisis situations, text "NEDA" to 741-741. She was in a hospice bed that was set up in our living room, and she was really just detached behind the eyes,” McCurdy recalled. “Her cancer had spread to her brain. And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man,’ ” McCurdy read. “My brothers had each given their good news of their lives. Sometimes, she craved her approval and validation – so much so that people-pleasing became instinctual, and she inadvertently gave up control over her diaries, schedules, relationships, finances and even body during shower checkups. … I told your brothers about you, and they all said they disown you just like I do. You used to be my perfect little angel, but now you are nothing more than a little –all caps– slut, a floozy, all used up. I understand why she was disapproving.

"My relationship with Miranda was hugely healing," the former Nickelodeon star said. Her bestselling new memoir delves into her childhood with an abusive parent ...

[ her memoir](https://www.today.com/popculture/jennette-mccurdy-icarly-memoir-shocking-revelations-t261684), McCurdy said that she considered Cosgrove as a "sister" while they filmed "iCarly." That’s the person I’m in a book club with … "And as much as I think I know Miranda deeply and intimately, I don’t like that I know her through the context of ‘iCarly,’ because ‘iCarly’ is ending, and I don’t want our friendship to end with it.” My relationship with Miranda was hugely healing to my concept of women," she said. But the book is also filled with humor, as](https://www.today.com/popculture/jennette-mccurdy-memoir-interview-t263388)shares shocking revelations from McCurdy's life as a child actor. McCurdy's mom, Debra McCurdy, died of breast cancer in 2013 when McCurdy was 21.