Vicky Pattison

The former Geordie Shore star, 34, was known for binge drinking and wild nights on the reality show, and shared that looking back she is 'mortified' and was ' ...

I drank to excess and drank dangerous amounts,' she told the publication. No off switch: 'Loads of people on the show had a really nice time and became funny and silly and then stopped. 'Loads of people on the show had a really nice time and became funny and silly and then stopped. I never wanted the party to stop but I'd be shouting, belligerent. She shared: 'I was always begging Dad to stop. as she recalls contemplating suicide during while appearing on rowdy Geordie Shore

The star admitted that she was worried she would 'go the same way' as her alcoholic father as her drinking spiralled out of control.

Now living in London with her fiancé, TOWIE star Ercan Ramadan, Vicky said that while she isn’t an alcoholic she maintains a “complicated” relationship with alcohol. “The boys didn’t want to knock on my door because Dad could be scary,” she revealed. Vicky reflected on her drunken Geordie Shore days in an interview with The Times Magazine, saying that she felt “sick to her stomach” watching old episodes of the Newcastle reality show.

Former Geordie Shore star Vicky Pattison had moments in her life where she was 'exactly like' her father. She opened up ahead of the release of her Channel ...

“The boys didn’t want to knock on my door because Dad could be scary. "Loads of people on the show had a really nice time and became funny and silly and then stopped. She is keen to find out as much as she can in order to keep herself healthy while discussing the devastating impact addiction and alcohol has had on her and her loved ones. She got 'frightened' at the idea that becoming an alcoholic was in a person's genes and said she 'needed to take steps to change things'. The star, who left the show in 2014, went on to explain her relationship with her father and said his drinking got worse when she got older. That was never me.

Geordie Shore's Vicky Pattison opened up about her fears she would become dependant on alcohol like her father.

She later returned to the show for two more series before quitting for good in 2014. Vicky explained: ‘I didn’t want to be like him. ‘Loads of people on the show had a really nice time and became funny and silly and then stopped.

Vicky Pattison says she felt "pressured" into living up to her onscreen persona whilst filming for MTV reality show Geordie Shore and described her onscreen ...

"I never wanted the party to stop but I’d be shouting, belligerent. "I was young and felt the pressure to be who they wanted me to be, and that made me feel so powerless. Vicky said: "I don’t have an off switch and I was never a nice drunk.